| Ok, the sentimental me is back. Once again, it is this period of time that I am feeling extra exhausted. It is soon going to be over BUT we are not there yet... and it is at this crucial point that I am always worried that I might trip and fall after such a long run from the beginning. You know, the race is not over yet...I always have so much energy at the starting point, thinking that I am going to breeze through the 6 months, that I am going to enjoy the run, but now I got tired again. Probably, as always, I have been pressing myself too hard. It's gotten to such a bad state that I get paranoid for nothing, and more and more nervous abt work. On the other hand, I attribute all that to my empty schedule. Because of the lack of meaningful events in my life, I focus on the minor things to get paranoid about. The same kind of work appears in front of me over and over...it's getting boring.
I donno if it's because of junior year that there is this feeling of restlessness and being zombie-like. Nothing excites me anymore...and such a bleak vision ahead. It will be time for me to go back home soon...i worry about the future again.
Sometimes I feel like sleeping for a full week, but then again, I worry about the things that I am going to miss. I worry about this and that, it's just endless...
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to get away from my desk, i decided to go work in the sch computer lab, and now here I am blogging away...wahaha i think i made the right decision to come here...it's SO much more efficient to work here than at home  |
